So, I've decided that its time to put together an altar in here here room. However, there isn't room for the kind I like. So, it will have to be the top of a bookcase... but I'm gonna be cool with that. I'm trying to decide if its going to be shriny, or Wiccan altary. So I want to include my trad altar, or just make it a shrine? Or both.
See, before, I had shelves and sconces, etc., but they would look silly in this room. I have been so ridiculously stressed out at work (I know, I need to call the EAP) that I feel that I should be doing daily devotions. I just a) need to create a sacred space and b) need to figure out my daily devotional prayer.
I got beads to make prayer beads (and came up with a kick ass goddess string) and that might be helpful... lighting candles seem to be silly cause Id have to a) leave them unattended, or b) have to put them out right away. So I need to find some other way. I was thinking of creating a tree from branches and tying a ribbon on the branches each day. I have TONS of ribbon. Like TONS. My altar is a complete blank slate now, a flat wooden shelf with my coven's working book of shadows at one end. I'll post a photo of course, once its done.
Sorry if it offends you conservative facebookers (since the blog is fed to facebook). Okay, I'm not really SORRY sorry- but you can unfriend me if you really want to. I wouldn't like that- but you hafta do whatcha hafta do. :)
Blessed be!
My New Fave (annoying) Song
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Its like the verses are how I feel about my non-work social life sometimes, and the chorus is sometimes my work-life! Especially when I'm doing things for other offices or dealing with tickets, etc.
Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I Keep stalling, keeping it together
People around I gotto find something to say now
Holding back everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me oh no
I never say anything at all
So with nothing to consider they forget my name ame ame ame
They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me quiet girl
But I'm a riot
Mary-Jo-Lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
I miss the catch if they throw me the ball
I'm the last chick standing up against the wall
Keep up falling, these heels that keep me boring
Getting glammed up and sitting on the fence now
So alone all the time and I lock myself away
Listen to me
Thought I'm dressed up out 'n all
With everything considered they forget my name ame ame ame
They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name...
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me quiet girl
But I'm a riot
Mary-Jo-Lisa
Always the same
That's not my name...
That's not my name
That's not my name
Four letter word just to get me along
It's a difficulty and I'm biting on my tongue and I
I Keep stalling, keeping it together
People around I gotto find something to say now
Holding back everyday the same
Don't wanna be a loner
Listen to me oh no
I never say anything at all
So with nothing to consider they forget my name ame ame ame
They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me quiet girl
But I'm a riot
Mary-Jo-Lisa
Always the same
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
I miss the catch if they throw me the ball
I'm the last chick standing up against the wall
Keep up falling, these heels that keep me boring
Getting glammed up and sitting on the fence now
So alone all the time and I lock myself away
Listen to me
Thought I'm dressed up out 'n all
With everything considered they forget my name ame ame ame
They call me hell
They call me Stacey
They call me her
They call me Jane
That's not my name...
That's not my name
That's not my name
That's not my name
They call me quiet girl
But I'm a riot
Mary-Jo-Lisa
Always the same
That's not my name...
That's not my name
That's not my name
Letting Go of "Being Perfect"
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I was thinking to myself this afternoon- If only I was perfect.
If I was perfect maybe I’d get a promotion of some sort (not like any are actually available), or I’d be more respected, or new opportunities would fall out of the sky for me. Or I’d be happier. Or stuff. But I’m not perfect, and trying to be a perfectionist will drive me insane if I let it. Then I started thinking about how everyone else’s lives seem so much easier/ better/ happier than mine sometimes. But I *know* that everyone has their problems- it just doesn’t show on the outside. So, then, of course I started thinking about wondering if my problems show on the outside. Because really- I’m not a private person. I’m just not. Usually, I’ll happily discuss what’s on my mind- I don’t feel the need to keep things secret. If I am having issues paying my car payment this month- I’ll totally say that when shopping with a friend. I don’t feel embarrassed or any of that, usually. Maybe that’s “over sharing,” but I just wouldn’t judge anyone for things like that, so that’s what I expect in return.
Though, of course, that’s not always the case. Some people ARE judgy. But I’ve found that the most elitist/judgmental people usually are very conflicted and have lots of problems of their own- so it makes them feel better to put others’ down, even if it’s just mentally. Sometimes that’s not true, though. Sometimes they are just bitches. The bitches seem like bitches- even if they think they seem cool. They usually gather in small groups of 2 or 3 so they can whisper among themselves and all. I feel sorry for them because they are obviously bitches. I find those kind of actions completely pathetic.
And bitches like this love open people like me. “Open” being a relative term, as I’m open with my feelings, and talking about myself and my life sitches (though I usually have a giant filter up when talking about other people). But I’m not open in other ways. I have lots of walls up, I have big ol’ blocks, I have trouble relaxing, I have trouble letting go and a big fear of losing control. See- here I go, oversharing! The only reason this really bothers me, is that I KNOW I have undeveloped psychic and spiritual shit going on. I’d be more interested in divination. I’d have no problems aspecting. But try and try and try and try- and I still have lots of problems letting go, and relinquishing control. I feel balanced, but maybe I’d feel better if I was better at letting go.
Maybe I need to let go of the idea of being perfect or the best? I’m competitive and worry about other people a lot. Maybe I should just let go- experience life for me, so what *I* want to do and not be so hard on myself.
If I was perfect maybe I’d get a promotion of some sort (not like any are actually available), or I’d be more respected, or new opportunities would fall out of the sky for me. Or I’d be happier. Or stuff. But I’m not perfect, and trying to be a perfectionist will drive me insane if I let it. Then I started thinking about how everyone else’s lives seem so much easier/ better/ happier than mine sometimes. But I *know* that everyone has their problems- it just doesn’t show on the outside. So, then, of course I started thinking about wondering if my problems show on the outside. Because really- I’m not a private person. I’m just not. Usually, I’ll happily discuss what’s on my mind- I don’t feel the need to keep things secret. If I am having issues paying my car payment this month- I’ll totally say that when shopping with a friend. I don’t feel embarrassed or any of that, usually. Maybe that’s “over sharing,” but I just wouldn’t judge anyone for things like that, so that’s what I expect in return.
Though, of course, that’s not always the case. Some people ARE judgy. But I’ve found that the most elitist/judgmental people usually are very conflicted and have lots of problems of their own- so it makes them feel better to put others’ down, even if it’s just mentally. Sometimes that’s not true, though. Sometimes they are just bitches. The bitches seem like bitches- even if they think they seem cool. They usually gather in small groups of 2 or 3 so they can whisper among themselves and all. I feel sorry for them because they are obviously bitches. I find those kind of actions completely pathetic.
And bitches like this love open people like me. “Open” being a relative term, as I’m open with my feelings, and talking about myself and my life sitches (though I usually have a giant filter up when talking about other people). But I’m not open in other ways. I have lots of walls up, I have big ol’ blocks, I have trouble relaxing, I have trouble letting go and a big fear of losing control. See- here I go, oversharing! The only reason this really bothers me, is that I KNOW I have undeveloped psychic and spiritual shit going on. I’d be more interested in divination. I’d have no problems aspecting. But try and try and try and try- and I still have lots of problems letting go, and relinquishing control. I feel balanced, but maybe I’d feel better if I was better at letting go.
Maybe I need to let go of the idea of being perfect or the best? I’m competitive and worry about other people a lot. Maybe I should just let go- experience life for me, so what *I* want to do and not be so hard on myself.
Ugh.
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I hate it when people don't tell you the whole truth. Or omit something that they know would piss you off. Or secretly delay saying that they won't be able to make a scheduled gathering so that it's dropped on you at the last moment- completely screwing already created plans, and not giving people a chance to change/correct/fix plans so that they aren't so screwed. That is SO inconsiderate. This has happened to me so much lately, I'd think that someone is whispering in peoples' ears that they should do this. It makes me distrustful. Is that a word? Not trusty? Whatever.
That being said, its Monday. And I'm SO tired. I said to Ben last night that I would help go through boxes and stuff this evening. So we can take stuff to storage and stuff. But lawdy, lawdy, Im so tired. I couldn't sleep last night, and then around 2AM, I had to take an Atarax because I was itching so much. A side effect of Atarax is sleepiness, and it makes me sleep like a log. So I was completely dizzy and groggy this morning and almost fell asleep driving to work. Its so funny because medications like Atarax and Xanax do not make me sleepy, unless I need them to. But when it does make me sleepy, I SLEEP!
I may do laundry tonight. Let me tell you how awesome it is having a washer and dryer available. Our situation may not be the best, but it's definitely nice having that around. I feel spoiled now- with my own room, washer and dryer, etc... but the problem I'm having is that now that Ben and I have our own spaces- while its great- I find that I miss having him in the same room as me all the time. Now, THATS something I didn't expect! So, I must make up for that with snuggles! More later!
That being said, its Monday. And I'm SO tired. I said to Ben last night that I would help go through boxes and stuff this evening. So we can take stuff to storage and stuff. But lawdy, lawdy, Im so tired. I couldn't sleep last night, and then around 2AM, I had to take an Atarax because I was itching so much. A side effect of Atarax is sleepiness, and it makes me sleep like a log. So I was completely dizzy and groggy this morning and almost fell asleep driving to work. Its so funny because medications like Atarax and Xanax do not make me sleepy, unless I need them to. But when it does make me sleepy, I SLEEP!
I may do laundry tonight. Let me tell you how awesome it is having a washer and dryer available. Our situation may not be the best, but it's definitely nice having that around. I feel spoiled now- with my own room, washer and dryer, etc... but the problem I'm having is that now that Ben and I have our own spaces- while its great- I find that I miss having him in the same room as me all the time. Now, THATS something I didn't expect! So, I must make up for that with snuggles! More later!
New Jewelry Uploaded to my Shop!
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Crafts
Because I'm getting a new shipment of beads (for prayer beads/malas, mostly), I made a few things this weekend. And finished others... and uploaded them to my eShop! If you wanna see the rest of the photos in my shop, click on the name of the piece. I don't know why it uploaded all funky- I should have hand-coded it. But its so late!
Rose Quartz Pendulum
Kelli Earrings
Rose Quartz Pendulum
Kelli Earrings
The Ridiculousness of People
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I got this IM tonight. It cracked my (fat) ass up.
mystica_eremita_19: Hello
barefoot_witchy: hello
mystica_eremita_19: how are you?
barefoot_witchy: not bad.
barefoot_witchy: yourself?
mystica_eremita_19 is typing a message.
mystica_eremita_19: FUCKING FATASS
barefoot_witchy: Thats nice.
barefoot_witchy: See, I care NOTHING about you.
barefoot_witchy: Really.
barefoot_witchy: So, if that was meant to hurt my feelings, you are seriously off the mark.
barefoot_witchy: Hello?
barefoot_witchy: Stop masturbating and pay attention.
barefoot_witchy: You obviously need some new material.
barefoot_witchy: See, my fat ass gets sex on the regular. Unlike you, obviously. You have some pent up angst. I can tell.
barefoot_witchy: ...
I don't know why he didn't IM me back?
Hah.
mystica_eremita_19: Hello
barefoot_witchy: hello
mystica_eremita_19: how are you?
barefoot_witchy: not bad.
barefoot_witchy: yourself?
mystica_eremita_19 is typing a message.
mystica_eremita_19: FUCKING FATASS
barefoot_witchy: Thats nice.
barefoot_witchy: See, I care NOTHING about you.
barefoot_witchy: Really.
barefoot_witchy: So, if that was meant to hurt my feelings, you are seriously off the mark.
barefoot_witchy: Hello?
barefoot_witchy: Stop masturbating and pay attention.
barefoot_witchy: You obviously need some new material.
barefoot_witchy: See, my fat ass gets sex on the regular. Unlike you, obviously. You have some pent up angst. I can tell.
barefoot_witchy: ...
I don't know why he didn't IM me back?
Hah.
My "Studio" Space
One of the cool things about living here, is the fact that I get my own C/craft room. This room is for my crafts, and will also be used as a temple room. I got to choose the paint color (a nice moss/pea green), and got to move all of my stuff in here. All of my work clothes are also in here, as our closet is TINY. All my casual clothes are in our room. It was a little challenging, trying to find places for my stuff around my in-laws stuff. My bookcases from our living room, and the armoire from the hallway is in here, too, so it was a little difficult, at times figuring where everything was going to go. My one plan was to find more table space. Here are a few photos from a couple days after we moved in.
(All of the bottles are from the herbs I had to dig through to make the incense for Litha! LOL!)
And then I had to find places for my in-laws' stuff so I could use the space, too.
and so I did!
In the photo below, you'll see our linens. We had to find space for them. My ILs said we could use their towels, but I really like ours. And ours match our bathroom and stuff. Things like that make me feel relaxed.
So, now that almost everything is put away- just have a few things to hang up and some trash to throw away... here it is... TADA! I am typing away at the desk right now on my mini and feel SO comfortable in it!
Here is as "Ivy pose" shot. See, it comes in handy for more than just myspace and facebook! I tried to get most of the room so you can kinda see it. See the pretty green?
Here's my comfy papasan chair (great for meditation and reading), two witchy cabinets stacked on one another (I need to bind the top one to the wall), and my white cubes from Target with my big paper trimmer and my Xyron PCS.
And here is my witchy armoire with my hand drums and other meditative things. Sorry its blurry. Those pink blobs are cute candle holders from Ikea. Like I needed more candle holders, right?
Below are my bookcases. On the left there is my open working BOS that we use in my coven. In the center is an upside down candle holder where I will be hanging my finished jewelry pieces before I photograph them. The painting is one I want to get framed. It looks better than it seems. But I'm no painter! On the right are two nesting tables, perfect to drag out for altars or shrines!
Here is my spare table and shelf for visiting crafters! Below are floor cushions for classes or meditations, and four wrought iron candle holders for quarter candles- I only use them sometimes.
I know it looks a cluttery mess, but it looks better in real life. On top are all my scrapbooks (including empty mini ones in the basket), then I have prima flowers and embellishments (sorted by color in the tackle boxes, and others in the easily ported purple boxes). Then on the table I have my ribbon scrap jars, assorted odds and ends, my basket of adhesives, my tool bag, a spaghetti jar of ribbon spools, my 8x8 stuff, jewelry tools, and drawers of stamping stuff.
My herb jars, candle and incense holders and statuary. And other randomness.
On top are my notes, BOS's (coven and personal) and my coven scrapbook. Ask me, I'll show it to you. And if you know where to get a 8.5 x 11 ringed album to hold lots o pages, please share.
Here is my armoire of randomness. Its mostly just the things we use most in circle, as well as some momentos, like my floral crown from Beltane, and other things like that. I know its a mess, but I'll have time to sort it out, now that everything is IN there. :)
And thats my new Studio!
(All of the bottles are from the herbs I had to dig through to make the incense for Litha! LOL!)
And so, I got a few things put away...
And then I had to find places for my in-laws' stuff so I could use the space, too.
and so I did!
In the photo below, you'll see our linens. We had to find space for them. My ILs said we could use their towels, but I really like ours. And ours match our bathroom and stuff. Things like that make me feel relaxed.
So, now that almost everything is put away- just have a few things to hang up and some trash to throw away... here it is... TADA! I am typing away at the desk right now on my mini and feel SO comfortable in it!
Here is as "Ivy pose" shot. See, it comes in handy for more than just myspace and facebook! I tried to get most of the room so you can kinda see it. See the pretty green?
Here's my comfy papasan chair (great for meditation and reading), two witchy cabinets stacked on one another (I need to bind the top one to the wall), and my white cubes from Target with my big paper trimmer and my Xyron PCS.
And here is my witchy armoire with my hand drums and other meditative things. Sorry its blurry. Those pink blobs are cute candle holders from Ikea. Like I needed more candle holders, right?
Below are my bookcases. On the left there is my open working BOS that we use in my coven. In the center is an upside down candle holder where I will be hanging my finished jewelry pieces before I photograph them. The painting is one I want to get framed. It looks better than it seems. But I'm no painter! On the right are two nesting tables, perfect to drag out for altars or shrines!
Here is my spare table and shelf for visiting crafters! Below are floor cushions for classes or meditations, and four wrought iron candle holders for quarter candles- I only use them sometimes.
I know it looks a cluttery mess, but it looks better in real life. On top are all my scrapbooks (including empty mini ones in the basket), then I have prima flowers and embellishments (sorted by color in the tackle boxes, and others in the easily ported purple boxes). Then on the table I have my ribbon scrap jars, assorted odds and ends, my basket of adhesives, my tool bag, a spaghetti jar of ribbon spools, my 8x8 stuff, jewelry tools, and drawers of stamping stuff.
My herb jars, candle and incense holders and statuary. And other randomness.
On top are my notes, BOS's (coven and personal) and my coven scrapbook. Ask me, I'll show it to you. And if you know where to get a 8.5 x 11 ringed album to hold lots o pages, please share.
Here is my armoire of randomness. Its mostly just the things we use most in circle, as well as some momentos, like my floral crown from Beltane, and other things like that. I know its a mess, but I'll have time to sort it out, now that everything is IN there. :)
And thats my new Studio!
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